The heart is forever inexperienced
A girl that enjoys words, and savors music
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❝I never take you back right away. Even in the darkest parts of my mind, there’s still a little voice that says, this probably isn’t a good idea. So I make you explain yourself. I tell you that I don’t have time for someone who’s going to hum and haw over whether he wants to be with me.❞
— http://thoughtcatalog.com
❝Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful. It’s for the bold. It’s for those willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for those knowing a good thing when they see it. Even if they don’t see it nearly enough.❞
❝Every boyfriend is the one
Until otherwise proven
The good are never easy
The easy never good
And loving never happens like you think it really should❞
— “Homewrecker” by Marina and the diamonds

In the prospect of brooding secretly, she sat in a foreign cafe.

Somewhere near her house due to lack of transportation and to think while walking.

She choose a seat near the window, mainly to watch pediatricians, and to daze off.

There was no one she knew in the cafe, a delicate place where few lurked, and stayed.

She thought of her life, about how complicated it is in general,and how she rarely prayed.

The off the balance of fear and hope in her life, and the uncontrollable urge to break free.

She wondered why happiness was evanescent, why love didn’t last, and why her emotions at times were unbearable.

The server brought her coffee, studied her comely features, and vanished.

She wondered why did life take people on the path of unknown, about the universality of the truth and why there wasnt an elixir for trust.

Why god gives people’s test, why some challenges are not worth the knowledge for later on in life, and as to why can’t pain can be self inflicted.

Above all, she wondered why people come in and out of her life, why people do wrong more often then good, and why she’s not like others.


  

Day 45-Who never fails to make you feel good about yourself?

I depend. too much on other people to make me happy. It saddens me sometimes how much my dependence on others affects my life. I rely on people to change my  crummy mood with their way with words and expressions. Happiness lies within, true happiness awaits for anyone, only if the person could be happy with themselves before finding happiness with someone else.

My sisters are my rock. They complete my days and nights. I love all of them deeply because they are blunt and utterly honest. All of them have traits that I wish I had and mostly adore. They make me feel my best when I feel depressed and confused.